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| Claes Oldenburg draws Blueberry Pie, 16mm, 2023, Tacita Dean |
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| A flicker of a cigarette: Beau Travail |
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| Aimless driving: The Brown Bunny |
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| An expression of loneliness in Ali: Fear Eats the Soul |
31/07/2023
Flights
I've recently developed a fascination with tracking planes that fly over my house in the evenings.
I see them from a distance as dots of light, and watch them as they edge closer and closer, until I hear them pass overhead. I think the obsession has something to do with a strangely addictive feeling of distant intimacy, or is perhaps related to longing for a world beyond Melbourne.
'Flightradar24' informed me that these two flights originated in the Middle East:
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| Two dots of light in the distance |
11/07/2023
An elegy for forgotten spaces
I've always been interested in the use of neglected spaces, such as disowned empty sites and laneways, to make something beautiful and thoughtful. As a teenager, I used the lane behind my home to display sculptures I made from locally found detritus. The lane was somewhere I could retreat to after a school day and provided company with neighbours who are practising artists. They would offer encouragement, critique and share books or the names of other artists I should seek out. It was an inspiring social and artistic antidote to my secondary schooling. I cared for the lane for five years until I gave up the project, and the space returned to its original wild and dishevelled appearance. When I pass the lane these days, and see it in its current state of neglect, I'm reminded of all the memories I had there when I was younger. Those memories mean a lot to me, and it wouldn't necessarily be apparent to anyone else that this modest lane holds such emotion. It has made me think about other forgotten spaces and overgrown old ruins that hold quiet memories and stories.
The AIDS Memorial Garden is nestled in bushland alongside the Yarra River in Fairfield on the site of a former infectious diseases hospital. The garden first came to my attention in John Foster's 1993 memoir Take Me to Paris, Johnny, which recounts the intriguing life of Foster's partner Juan Cespedes until his death due to an AIDS-related illness. It was described as a rambling 'secret garden' set amongst gum trees and rose bushes, providing quiet repose for AIDS patients and their families. I was interested in visiting the garden, but I wondered what state it would be in or whether it even still existed as the site had since been taken over by a new institution. An old website that documented the garden's history revealed that the bare bones of the garden still remained, but it had otherwise fallen into a state of disrepair.
On my first visit, I walked for ages through an eerily quiet polytechnic campus in hopeful search of it. I felt as though I was trespassing. When I eventually made it there, I followed a sign that led me into an obscure clearing. There was a dilapidated rotunda that was falling apart, with a wild rose climbing up its side. Native grasses had grown tall and unruly and rustled in the wind like faint whispers. There are only subtle reminders of the immensity of the garden's history, such as the golden plaques attached to park benches. Each one reads as a dedication to the lives of the hospital's AIDS victims who had their ashes spread in the garden. Another weathered plaque, hidden by foliage, welcomes you into the garden: 'This garden area, a joint project marking the relationship between Fairfield Hospital and the Victorian AIDS Council in caring for people with AIDS, is for the use of all patients and their visitors at Fairfield (April 1988).' The garden's history, and its setting for sombre contemplation, as documented in passages from Foster's book, and also in Timothy Conigrave's 1995 autobiography Holding the Man, seem to be most felt in depths buried amongst overgrown foliage. It can be felt, too, in the almost-silent shifts of native plants in the breeze. Whenever I visit the garden I think of all the people I admire who have succumbed to AIDS around the world: Derek Jarman, Arthur Russell, David Wojnarowicz, Peter Hujar, Conigrave, Foster— just to name a few. Regardless of whether the garden has been forgotten or not, for me, it is loaded with their presence and links together all of their stories; their work and activism.
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| A rugged corner of the AIDS Memorial Garden, Fairfield |
18/05/2023
Wavelength
I was recently moved by Michael Snow's 1967 structural film Wavelength, which I saw projected in 16mm in a little room to the side of a bar. Wavelength is a film that plays with perception through pushing the boundaries of cinematic space and temporality to transcendental effect. The film represents a single space (a New York City studio loft), with a zoom that gradually lurches across it over a 45 minute duration. A few events partially occur within the frame: furniture is moved, two women listen to the radio, and a man later collapses on the floor. These events never imply an explicit narrative meaning, they're instead markers of particular points of time in the course of the zoom. While the fading in-and-out of daylight through long windows suggests the rapid passing of days within the image, time feels prolonged for the viewer. The zoom is so gradual that we're often held in place and subjected to a static image of the loft. In an essay on the film, Michael Sicinski describes the Wavelength experience as being akin to being in a 'slow moving car.' This sense of slow chronology is occasionally disrupted by the changing of film stock, superimpositions, and coloured filters that are reminiscent of a sunset or an overexposure of light. While space gradually narrows as the zoom moves inwards, it ultimately comes to rest on a photograph of expansive space; the sea, before eventually fading to endless white.
After the screening I slunk past people drinking in the bar and got some fresh air outside. I ended up walking five kilometres, mulling the experience and readjusting my sense of space as I went along. Everything felt more expansive and sensual. Within the film's rigid boundaries, I had become conscious of the space I was held within. The rackety sound of passing trams outside and the aromas of perfume and red wine around me had added tangible layers to my experience of the film. I could feel myself becoming consumed by the sensuality of space. The essay by Sicinski provided context to this: 'Wavelength dramatises our bodily location in space, thus bringing to light our spatial existence within the cinema. Wavelength asks us to physically dwell within the cinema.'
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| A still from Wavelength taken from towards the beginning of the film |
16/05/2023
08/05/2023
Bricolage
This blog feels like a room with a grey-coloured wall where bits and pieces of writing and images are pinned up like bricolage.
I never engaged in blogging as a teenager. The only space that I had control over, aside from my bedroom, was the disused dead-end lane behind my family home. For about five years, the lane became a 'gallery' for sculptures that I made from rubbish and detritus gleaned from the neighbourhood, particularly from along the nearby train line. The exhibitions rotated every second week and I ensured that each one focused on a different theme and utilised a different part of the lane. Sometimes objects would hang from the overhanging sheltering branches of an oak tree, other times they'd be dotted around on the ground. Previous works would be dismantled and the materials reused for new sculptures. At the time I wanted to surprise people who walked past and allow them to see the lane in a different light. I don't think it was so much attention seeking borne out of loneliness, as I kept the project completely anonymous, but was simply an opportunity for teenage self expression.
Over the years, I was joined by neighbours who generously contributed bits and pieces to the project. Louise installed some of her geometric paintings on triangle-shaped pieces of wood to the side of a wooden shed that overlooked the lane. Ros pasted up some little etchings of old trees under the canopy of the 100-year-old oak tree. Thinking back to it now, I feel like the project was also a way for me to find company and collaborate with artists and neighbours who I admired. At around the age of 18, I grew out of the project and never returned to it. Although I feel like this blog is an extension of that lane, and perhaps even the longing, that was seeded as a teenager.
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05/05/2023
The Unhomely
Atiéna R. Kilfa's exhibition 'The Unhomely', which I saw in February at the Camden Art Centre, left a lingering impression on me.
As I approached the exhibition's main room, I recall feeling unsettled by an eerie drone-like noise. The emanating sound was like the hum of an overworked fan, intensified to make the viewer feel deeply unwelcome. Upon entering the room, the initial sight of electrical cords exposed behind a wall of LED screens, exacerbated the hostile welcome. Having previously been shown at KW in Berlin, I was interested in seeing how the installation would translate to the space at Camden. I was also interested in experiencing how the work would deal with both cinematic and perceptual space through the union of film and installation. Integrated around the LED wall is a wooden stage which elevates and delineates the viewer's movement through the work. Once placed on the stage, you feel compelled to walk across it towards the film on the screen at the other end.
The film unfolds across one continuous shot in a stairwell where two figures dwell in an unnerving state of tension. It was the uncanny stillness of the man and woman and their avoidance of each other's presence which startled me at first. They appear stilted and somewhat mannequin-like, but then not entirely fake either, which makes their avoidance feel even more strange. Their body language, especially of the woman who rests in a gentle position on the steps, suggests absence and loss. I was given the sense that these two people had been rendered inarticulate by trauma, perhaps inflicted by the stairwell's memory of something horrific. It's unclear whether the memory is recent, or even whether the film itself is located in present time. There are only a few incidental details within the frame that hint at the past, such as the ornate detailing of the stairwell railing and the 1950s-like formal attire of the figures, while the occasional ring of an old landline phone is left ignored. The work seems to deal with overlapping states of time: the frozen state of the figures, the languid time that flows over the course of the film's continuous loop, and the viewer's time as they navigate the work.
The controlled formal quality of Kilfa's film made me think of Chantal Akerman's work, particularly Jeanne Dielman. Both films force the viewer to feel the flow of time over a long take confined to one domestic space, while showing little details that express tension. In Akerman's film, the tension is fulfilled with a final act of violent revenge at the end of the film. It feels overtly fictive in contrast to the literalness of the domestic scenes which come to define the film. The violence in Kilfa's film never reaches a climax, it's continuous and ongoing: present.
There was something that compelled me to navigate the work by moving across the stage in time with the camera's movement. It was as though I was the camera itself, attempting to make sense of the tense drama before me. With every step that I took, the loud creaks of the stage's recycled floorboards added further animation to the film's drama. I felt self conscious of drawing attention to my lonely presence within the installation. As a subsequence, I guess the presence of the creaks added another overlapping tension to the film's blurred distinctions between space and time. The 'unhomely' gallery environment made me feel complicit in the violence implied by the film.
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| View from stage elevation |
03/05/2023
02/04/2023
Simplicty
For her recent Pompidou Centre retrospective, Joanna Hogg has made a new 10 minute film that captures her anxieties and artistic process. The film is shot in Los Angeles, where Hogg has temporarily based herself while devising a new feature film that she intends to be shot there. Hogg films views out of her hotel window during a storm, scans over pages of writing in her notebook, and films her feet as she walks down city streets. She talks about her deep attachment to place; the basis of all of her work, but she doesn't yet know what to point her camera at in this new city. L.A is obviously still revealing itself to her and she's got to find something she finds personal about the city. In her recent The Souvenir films she played with the idea of space as an object of the past by recreating her former flat as a model contained within an empty aircraft hanger. In the Pompidou film, she goes on to mention that hotel rooms easily become 'home' as she gets used to their sounds, smells and spatial qualities. Having recently travelled from city-to-city within Europe and 'set up shop' in different hotel rooms, I understand her attachment. I recall becoming weirdly acquainted with the musty aroma of my basement flat in London... to the point where I now miss it. It's a weird feeling to have to repeatedly sever ties with a 'home' after having had so many personal thoughts and experiences within it. As in her other work, reality and dreams begin to intertwine as Hogg recounts dreams that she's had while in L.A. These dreams have mysterious links to her concerns regarding the new film and there's the realisation that they could indeed form the basis of the new film. They're dreams that are now attached to her experience of a new city.
I really liked this little work from Hogg because it demonstrates that you can make a good film with the simplest of means. All you need is a camera, a sensibility, and some thoughts. And you can make a film about process, rather than something finished and certain with a cling-film gloss around it. The film finishes with Super 8 footage taken from the Pompidou Centre's exterior escalators, possibly taken in the 80s. We see the tubes and steel details of the Centre's facade: the container of Hogg's retrospective.
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On a different genre, the other night I went to see the British vocal consort The Gesualdo Six perform a concert of Renaissance music as well as contemporary pieces that experimented with old techniques. The controlled polyphony and textures of their voices was so beautifully pure. They reached emotional heights that washed over me like a rich, golden light. It's amazing that the human voice, if highly trained, can reach such a powerful level of beauty and immersion. I found it interesting that you don't need an orchestra of ninety musicians to make an impact. The more stripped back, the better.
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| Image I accidentally took while walking along with phone in hand |
29/03/2023
16/03/2023
Paris birds
In the cavernous basement of the hotel I stayed at in Paris recently, I sat facing three tapestries of birds intermingled with flowers and leaves while I had my breakfast. The hotel was right next to Gare du Nord. The sound of trains entering and passing through the station were constant. I heard nothing else but the mechanical sounds of a working city: screeching breaks, whistles, vibrations from the Métro below were dominant. While I scraped away at my boiled eggs, marmalade toast and sipped my espresso, I was surprised to hear birdsong. Perhaps my deep concentration on the tapestries had brought the birds to life. Or perhaps I was just longing to be away from the city, imagining the peace of the countryside.
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| The tapestries in question |
15/03/2023
Fraught communication
The difficulties of language is something that I think about often. I guess that it's at the forefront of a lot of the writing on here; a kind of self consciousness around feeling as though I'm not a particularly good writer. Being a visual person, I don't find it easy to bring out what I want to say through words. I might say one thing, but I really mean another. I feel that I always miss a beat. But one must try their best to communicate, because being silent will not get you anywhere in life. Here's a few things that dance around the idea of communication:
Physical communication
I was on the Victoria Line. Two teenaged boys made quite a strong entrance into the carriage by aggressively throwing themselves down onto seats opposite each other. One boy threw a newspaper at the other boy. I didn't hear laughter. I then watched as they communicated to each other through sign language. There would be an occasional pause as one boy would try to find the right word, while the other waited intently. At one point, one of them picked up the newspaper, crossed his leg, and pretended to mimic the old English gentleman sitting next to him.
Semi-extinct languages
Just yesterday, while spending an afternoon in my dear friend Valerie's pottery studio, a woman on holiday from Germany came in to look around. We got talking about Europe, particularly the difficulties of sharing borders with multiple countries with different political crises and agendas. She later mentioned that she had just been conducting 'field work' research in Papua New Guinea. This involved documenting how semi-extinct languages, such as 'Qaqet' (only spoken by 15,000 people) is transmitted. I found this really interesting, not only because I ashamedly lack awareness of Papua New Guinean culture and history, but because I was struck by the fact that a non-written language can become extinct. However I was aware that prior to colonisation in Australia, there were over 250 Indigenous languages specific to different clans. Only 40 of these languages are still spoken today due to the ongoing decimation of Indigenous culture as a result of policies made by settlers. I read this article from The Conversation that briefly addresses the difficult link between Indigenous language and culture: "we have our culture, a strong culture- but without language, how are you supposed to keep it going?"
A Portrait of Cate Blanchett
I keep returning to a film work by David Rosetzky that I saw in an Australian portraiture exhibition last year. A Portrait of Cate Blanchett focuses on the actor as she moves through a barren workshop used for the construction of theatre sets at the Sydney Theatre Company. The setting nicely complements the film's exploration of artistic process and the creation of fiction. The film begins with a close-up of Blanchett's hands; one hand moulding the other into different gestures. Although the hands are performing this action, rather than Robert Bresson's imagery of innocent hands devoid of acting, the image from Portrait instantly brought to mind this great Bresson quote: "how many useless and encumbered words disappear when things are expressed with the hand, the head, the shoulders!" The camera then moves backwards to gradually reveal either in-focus or blurry vision of Blanchett as the digital camera lens is changed. Blanchett's voiceover begins by exploring the inconsistencies of identity: what is seen and unseen. She finishes with a comment on interpretation: "I realised that exactly what I thought I was communicating would be received by someone in a completely different way- you can't control it. You have to give interpretation over."
In Todd Field's 2022 film TÁR, Blanchett plays a narcissistic conductor, Lydia Tár, who purposefully speaks in a way that eludes clear interpretation. When discussing music with her orchestra or with peers, she uses ambiguous allegories to describe what she's trying to achieve. I believe that the character performs in this way in order to alienate and gain the upper hand over people; one of many examples of her narcissistic personality and constant vie for power. There's a revealing moment in the film's second half where she cries alone while watching her inspiration, Leonard Bernstein talk about music's emotional affects. It's as though Tár is lamenting the fact that she's spent so much of her life performing a contrived version of herself and never been able to speak directly with an audience. Bernstein gets to the core of what music achieves without over embellishing his point. I liked what Bernstein said, so I'll take note of it: "music is the way it makes you feel when you hear it... you don't need to know a lot of stuff about sharps and chords to understand it. Some of those feelings are so special, so deep that you can't even describe them in words. We can't always name the things we feel."
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| A still from A Portrait of Cate Blanchett |
01/03/2023
I kept seeing Morandi paintings within big museum collections and house museums across Europe. At the beginning of the trip I saw his work in an exhibition in London, mentioned in a previous post. His work then seemed to follow me from city to city, even appearing as props in films I watched. Needless to say that I became quite acquainted with his airy, dreamy bottles.
The images below are highlights from Centre Pompidou, Ca'Pesaro in Venice and Villa Necchi Campiglio in Milan. Villa Necchi was used in Luca Guadagnino's 2009 film Io sono l'amore (I am Love). In that film, it was the residence of a modern day haute-bourgeois Milanese family, used to reflect their modern and cultured taste and accentuate their attachment to objects. After visiting the Villa, I rewatched the film in my hotel room and took note of a scene where a Morandi still life is passed on within the family as an engagement gift.
In a library I came across a book from a 2016 exhibition by Edmund de Waal of ceramics set within intricate display interventions that draw on the lightness of Morandi's atmosphere. Exquisite.
And then back in Melbourne, I saw Elio Petri's 1961 film L'assassino (The Assassin) at the Cinémathéque and noticed a Morandi in the background of a scene. I smiled to myself as it felt like an old companion had appeared on the giant screen in front of me... a reminder of all those discoveries and emotions felt while away.
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| Estorick Collection, London |
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| Ca'Pesaro, Venice |
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| Villa Necchi Campiglio, Milan |
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| A page from that Edmund de Waal book |
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| Io sono l'amore |
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| L'assassino |
















































